The Conversion of John Wesley – at 34

One of my historical, or literary, mentors is John Wesley the great revivalist of the eighteenth century and the founder of Methodism.

Wesley grew up in a Christian home, the fifteenth child of Samuel Wesley and his wife Susanna Annesley.  (Samuel and Susanna had nineteen children, of which nine died as infants and four were twins.)  Wesley’s father was a poet and pastor and his mother was particularly devoted, daily committing quality time with each of her children. Wesley attended seminary at Oxford and served as deacon in his father’s church.  Eventually, at the age of thirty-two Wesley decided to serve as a missionary to the Americas.  James Hutton, an acquaintance saw him off when he sailed to Georgia and corresponded with him after he reached America.  Wesley related how a group of Moravians sailing on the same ship sang hymns of praise in the midst of a great storm and how they answered those who asked whether they were afraid,  “We are neither afraid for ourselves nor for our children.”  Hutton in his book relates scenes of the Moravians, after they arrived in Savannah Georgia, felling timber, constructing houses, preaching to the Indians, and holding a song meeting all to the amazement and delight of John Wesley.

Hutton also describes the influence of these Moravians continued to have on John Wesley, “He talked much with the learned August Gottlieb Spangenberg, after he arrived in Georgia.

“My brother,” said Spangenberg to Wesley, “Do you know Jesus Christ?”

“I know,” replied Wesley,  “that Jesus Christ died for my sins.”

“That’s not what I asked you,” pursued Spangenberg, pressing the question further home,

“Do you know Jesus Christ?”  “I hope He has died to save me,” stammered Wesley.

“Do you know yourself?” persisted Spangenberg, who was not content with skin-deep work.

“No,” replied Wesley, and added, “I long to know Jesus Christ.” And Wesley stumbled on as dazed as ever.

“I went to America to convert the Indians,” he wrote, bitterly, in his Journal, on his way home to England; “but oh, who shall convert me?  I have a fair summer religion. I can talk well; nay, and I believe myself, when no danger is near. But let death look me in the face, and my spirit is troubled. Nor can I say, ‘to die is gain.’ I have a sort of fear that when I have spun my last thread I shall perish on the shore. I have learned that I who went to America to convert others was not converted myself.”[1]

The Moravian Peter Bohler was leading a bible study in London’s Fetter Lane. A historian writes, ‘Charles [Wesley, John’s brother] and John were in almost daily contact with Bohler.’

Peter Boehler said one day to John Wesley, “My brother, my brother, that philosophy of yours must be purged away.”

When John Wesley complained, “Ah, how can I preach the faith which I have not got?”

Peter Boehler answered, “Preach faith till you have it, and then, because you have it, you will preach it.”

“’In the evening,’ says Wesley, ‘I went very unwillingly to a society in Aldersgate Street, where one was reading Luther’s preface to [his commentary on] Romans.  About a quarter before nine while he was describing the change God works in the heart through faith in Christ, I felt my heart strangely warmed.  I felt I did trust in Christ alone, for salvation; and an assurance was given me that He had taken away my sins, even mine, and saved me from the law of sin and death.’”[2]

Finally, John Wesley got his breakthrough.  He had already discussed justification by faith with Peter Bohler, but this was different.

At 34 years of age he was finally born again.

After this Wesley followed Whitefield’s example and began preaching both justification by faith and the new birth in the churches. And one by one, the Anglican church leaders resisted him.

It wasn’t long before these newly converted ‘Methodists’, George Whitefield and John and Charles Wesley, began to gather others together to seek God for greater blessings.

Although the Wesleys and Whitefield parted ways (Whitefield was a Calvinist and the Wesleys Arminian), over the next 40 years these men would literally change the world.  It’s never too late…


[1] J.E. Hutton, A Short History of the Moravian Church (London: Moravian Publication Office, 1895), p. 189.

[2]. John Wesley Journal, May 24th 1738, Vol. 1. p.103.

The 10 Symptoms of Emotionally Unhealthy Spirituality

Linda and I would like to start a time-defined group in Santa Barbara to develop some relationships and consider the topic of emotionally healthy spirituality.  We anticipate using Peter Scazzero‘s book Emotionally Healthy Spirituality.  The following is a quick overview of an article he wrote…

A person can grow emotionally healthy without Christ. I can think of a number of non-Christian people who are more loving, balanced and civil than many church members I know. At the same time a person can be really into prayer, silence, Scripture, and other Xian disciplines and be emotionally immature and socially maladjusted.  It is the 2 together – emotional health and contemplative spirituality – that release great power to transform our spiritual lives, our small groups and our churches.

The pathway out of this disconnect is radical. That is, it very likely cuts to the root of your entire approach to following Jesus. Trimming a few branches by, for example, attending a prayer retreat or adding a couple of new spiritual disciplines to an already crowded life will not be enough. The enormity of the problem is such that only a revolution in our following of Jesus will bring about the lasting, profound change we long for in our lives.

Before I prescribe this pathway, it is essential for us to clearly identify the primary symptoms of emotionally unhealthy spirituality that continue to wreck havoc in our personal lives and our churches. The following are the top ten symptoms indicating if I am suffering from a bad case of emotionally unhealthy spirituality.

  1. Using God to run from God (e.g. applying Scripture selectively to suit my own purposes, not me doing God’s will.
  2. Ignoring the emotions of anger, sadness, and fear (e.g. not being honest with myself and/or others about the feelings, hurts and pains beneath the surface of my life).
  3. Dying to the wrong things (e.g. denying healthy, God-given desires and pleasures of life (friendships, joy, music, beauty, laughter, nature) while finding it difficult to die to my self-protectiveness, defensiveness, a lack of vulnerability and judgmentalism).
  4. Denying the past’s impact on the present (e.g. not considering how my family of origin and significant  people/events from my past have shaped my present).
  5. Dividing life into “secular” and “sacredcompartments (e.g.  compartmentalizing God to “Christian activities” while usually forgetting about him when I am working, shopping, studying or recreating).
  6. Doing for God instead of being with God (e.g. evaluating my spirituality based on how much I am doing for God).
  7. Spiritualizing away conflict (e.g. Missing out on true peace by smoothing over disagreements, burying tensions and avoiding conflict – rather than disrupting the false peace like Jesus).
  8. Covering over brokenness, weakness, and failure (e.g. not speaking freely about my weaknesses, failures and mistakes).
  9. Living without limits (e.g. “trying to do it all” or “bite off more than I can chew”).
  10. Judging the spiritual journeys of others (e.g. finding myself occupied and bothered by the faults of others).

What God did in our lives spilled out into the church immediately, beginning with our staff team, then our elder board and eventually the rest of our leadership.

The result has been a rippling effect, very slowly, through the entire church.

Beginning with the staff and elders, interns, ministry and small group leaders– directly and indirectly–we have intentionally integrated the principles that are explained more fully in The Emotionally Healthy Church (Zondervan 2003) and Emotionally Healthy Spirituality (Nelson, 2006).

Once you go through the door and leave what I am calling “emotionally unhealthy spirituality,” there is no turning back. It is the beginning of a journey that will change your life, your marriage, your church and, ultimately, your ministry!

To see the full article click here.